An unexpected storm is either catastrophic or
adventurous. At the end of it you are either a survivor who has tales to tell,
or you become a tale yourself…
She walked the talk and had the charm to sweep
anyone off their feet. She allowed nobody to prescribe a life for her. She was
like a fragrant breeze with a friendly flavor, if only you walked beside her.
She was a tempest if you probed into, there was no way you could get her.
I loved the way she prided herself. Every time she would sit in front
of the mirror, her eyes would gleam with self-obsession. I thought nobody could
love her better than herself. Anybody who knew her would want to flaunt their
alliance with her.
She was a spinster with no regrets for opting
to live the life on her set terms. Saying this would be partially incorrect, as
she chose to dedicate a part of her life in bringing up her deceased sister’s
son who was blessed with a rather slow mental growth.
She raised the child to the best of her
capacities. It would sometimes seem like she used her nephew as a means or an
excuse to lead the life of her choice, as she would revolt at the slightest
curiosity expressed by her family with regards to her lifestyle and her. At
other times it seemed like her life was meant only for the child, & her
family members were just an extended support system. The difficulty was to make
out, if it was destiny that chose the life for her, or if she had crafted her
own destiny.
Every passing year brought new changes and
dimensions to Sejal's life. The boy soon grew up into a fine young man, and
despite his limited abilities, he was far more civilized than most mentally
stable creations of his age. Sejal's diligence in his upbringing proved to be
lucrative. It would not be too much to call, Sejal & Varun as the best aunt
and nephew duo
In lesser time Sejal also lost her parents,
and the void was irreplaceable for her. She had soon approached her Fifty mark,
and age was just a number. She still looked stunning as ever and was free from
parental nagging now.
It is nice to have your parents looking over
you, no matter how old you get in life, or how much you’ve made. Sejal was
slowly stepping into loneliness and depression after her parents had departed.
She had begun to lose her confidence in the choices she had made in life. Varun
at his pace could not grow a brain to understand her feelings, except for a
heart he had that could sense Sejal was disturbed.
Sejal dragged herself through her depressed
life for 8 years, & later she contracted a couple of other chronicle
ailments, which she had to fight all by herself. The decisions she took during
a rush in adrenalin had cornered Sejal to seek help from her family. Sejal
could, however, manage to hide her health condition from her family only until
her physical appearance did not forsake her
Her nervous disorder gifted her a shaky jaw,
and Parkinson had begun to shrink her stature. As though this wasn’t enough,
she frequently began to complain of an unbearable stomach pain past midnight.
Every time her medical reports suggested that the pain was imaginary and
existed due to her depression. In her loneliness, she began to imitate the
character of the insecure boy, who would scream every night complaining about a
wolf in his hut, only to check if the villagers gathered to save him &
cared for him. He was killed one day when a wolf really entered his hut and the
villagers never turned up. All her life she wore a mask of boldness to defend
her choices of unconventionality. She did not share her life with anybody
fearing betrayal. She was a timid soul hiding inside a gorgeous skin all her
life.
Her life barely lasted in this fashion for a
couple of years from this stage. The Diva was on her journey of turning to dust.
The face which could give any beauty pageant a run for her career and money was
now in a pitiful state.
Kindness is always indebted to those who offer
it generously to anyone in their lifetime. Varun at Forty had the opportunity
to repay every act of kindness he had received from Sejal. Mentally Varun was
now equipped with the capacities of a Twelve-year-old boy, and he quickly
managed to learn many things in a short span of time. Varun never complained to
take care of her. Sejal’s family helped in supplying food & this supported
Varun to manage the other chores of the house with the help of a maid. He had
learned how to operate the phone in case of an emergency, as Sejal’s mobility
had slowed down. Sejal was unable to walk without support and lived on diapers
to save her walk to the restroom.
It was an unusual morning when Varun called
his cousin to inform her that Sejal was not responding to him. The day had
arrived. The Diva bid adios. She had as usual prescribed her own end. Sejal’s
family rushed into her house with a doctor who declared her dead. Finally, her
family was exposed to her malignancy after they discovered a few reports which
were lying next to her bed. Sejal had not disclosed this fact to her family as
a matter of choice.
She had assigned her death mission to
malignancy.
Some people in this world are vaguely sculpted
by God. Sejal remains an unsolved puzzle.
Deepthi
True....I have seen people who prefer to be alone to enjoy freedom in life which ultimately ends with depression and loneliness.
ReplyDeleteGood one Deepthi
Thank u Kishore :)
DeleteLife is all about accepting it as it comes. Sometimes in our youth we deny to accept the norms and much later we succumb, openly or hidden, to life as it turns back on us. Can't say which is better..... It's a mystery.....
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DeleteNice narration Deepthi. Everyone has rights to live life on their own way and terms. All of us make good and not so good decisions. We cannot be correct all the time, well it is hard to be. Plus time and destiny has good control if one believes on them. Hard to judge anyone from outside of the person himself/herself.
ReplyDeleteGood writing. Please keep up the great work.
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Gagan
Thanx Gagan :)
DeleteNo one lives in isolation. Anyway a person can lead his/her life according to meaning of life one has. The environment influences one's life. Many times happiness for some one to suffer so that people notice them. The suicidal tendency is anti life. It is difficult to bring out a person from abyss of suffering to apex of happiness if he/she wants to remain there.
ReplyDeleteTrue Mr. Viren :)
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